The world behind me, the cross before me... I have always wanted to be married, but God's grace is sufficient for me. Perhaps I shall be married, perhaps I shall be single. May God's will be done. Love you Father, Amen I had a dream last night April 17 that hell was trying to swallow me, but I fought the massive devil with my sword in hand to hand combat! I called fire down from heaven in faith and the demon, entity, mass, was destroyed. Then I saw it come out of the sea, just like in revelations. God will keep me at perfect peace. He will be with me on the journey. Please bless Nelly to become the mother she wants to be! Lord I love you. Lord God! It's not just about intensity it's about consistency! Lord I LOVE you! With all of this broken heart! I feel attacks against your Spirit! I say Lord rebuke you! Lord help me in my secret place to please your heart! May I not be an actor or a hypocrite, but be a real man of God! Lord you have justified me! You are sanctifying me! And you will glorify me! Oh what a promise to be a son of God! Oh what a hope I have in Jesus! He is my deliverer from the depths of the grave!
Sunday, 12 April 2026
Friday, 3 April 2026
Mental health update:
For two decades this May I have been struggling with mental health issues. I've been hospitalized 20+ times, for long periods of time. I am currently hospitalized for the last seven months. Nothing seems to work against my intrusive thoughts. I fall into inner torment and fear... However I am learning that God does not give us a Spirit of fear, but power, Love, and a sound mind. Oh how I love Jesus! Despite my intrusive, blasphemous thoughts. I know my experiences are going to help someone. They happened for a reason, and I have hope. No matter what God has not forsaken me! No matter how I've offended Him. He is so good to me! And He is good to you as well. In faith in Him, you and I are brethren, and I want to meet all of God's prodigal children! He's going to bring all of us home! Oh what an amazing thing to be a child of the most high God! Oh what a mystery. Please let us pray for each other, that we may have Godliness with contentment, which is great gain. I love you my brothers and sisters! May God's will permeate your life. Amen!
Sunday, 23 March 2025
Ocean in time review
Review of The Ocean in Time
⭐ Overall Rating: 9/10
A sweeping epic of fate, sacrifice, and identity, The
Ocean in Time is a masterfully woven tale that blends high fantasy with deep
philosophical questions about destiny, free will, and redemption. With an
intricate world, unforgettable characters, and a narrative that bends the very
fabric of time, this novel delivers both emotional depth and breathtaking
action.
1. Summary of the Story
At its core, The Ocean in Time follows Silverious,
a warrior bound to a fate he does not fully understand. He is not just a
hero—he is Time itself, struggling against the forces of darkness,
prophecy, and his own cursed lineage.
✔ The War for the Ocean →
The Ocean is not just water, but a force that connects all realms.
Whoever controls it controls the flow of time, the fate of worlds, and the
balance between light and darkness.
✔ The Rise of Cocomal → Silverious’ most
personal battle is against Cocomal the Black, a warrior tied to him
by blood and fate. Cocomal’s tragic descent into darkness serves as a
mirror to what Silverious could become.
✔ The Power of the Crimson Jewel → When Clamesius
sacrifices herself, she is transformed into the Crimson Jewel, the
ultimate weapon—and the final key to Silverious' destiny.
✔ The Fall into the Lower World → Silverious,
after losing his arm, the Jewel, and his last hope, is cast into the
lowest depths of existence, where even the Ocean cannot reach.
At its heart, the novel is about choice—do we follow the
fate assigned to us, or do we forge our own path?
2. Strengths of the Novel
🔹 1. The Themes: Fate vs.
Free Will
One of the strongest elements of the novel is its
philosophical depth. The battle between Silverious and Cocomal is not
just physical—it is a battle of belief.
✔ Silverious believes that
fate can be changed.
✔ Cocomal believes that they are doomed to
darkness.
🔹 Key Quote
(Silverious Rejecting His Birthright as a Mare):
❝Evil is a choice! As is goodness!❞
This central debate drives the novel forward, giving
weight to every decision Silverious makes.
🔹 2. The Worldbuilding: A
Universe Beyond Time
✔ The Ocean is a living force—not
just water, but a power that flows through all existence.
✔ The Lower World is a haunting contrast to
the Ocean—a place of suffering where time itself collapses.
✔ Mount Citadad, where the past, present, and
future converge, serves as both a battlefield and a metaphysical test.
🔹 Key Moment: The
Fracture of Time
- During
the battle at Mount Citadad, warriors from different timelines suddenly
find themselves fighting side by side, proving that time is not a
line, but a cycle.
✔ This level of worldbuilding
makes The Ocean in Time feel vast, interconnected, and deeply immersive.
🔹 3. The Character Arcs:
Redemption & Betrayal
Every major character has a deep, emotional
transformation:
✔ Silverious → From a
warrior bound by duty to the embodiment of Time itself.
✔ Cocomal → From a once-noble hero to a fallen
warrior searching for absolution.
✔ Quasepella → From a manipulator to a
villain who fears losing control.
✔ Clamesius → From a tragic lover to a
Crimson Jewel, becoming something greater than herself.
🔹 Key Quote (Cocomal’s
Regret Over Killing Gosemis):
❝It haunted him for generations. He had personally
executed one of the greatest Dreams to ever live.❞
✔ These shifting loyalties,
betrayals, and emotional struggles add layers of complexity to the story.
🔹 4. The Action &
Emotion: A Balance of Chaos & Depth
✔ The duel between Silverious
and Cocomal is one of the most brutal and heart-wrenching battles in the
book.
✔ The death of Clamesius is shocking yet
poetic, as her body becomes the very object of power she fought for.
✔ Quasepella’s illusions, where she tries to
convince Silverious that Versillies is still alive, create a psychological
battle as intense as the physical ones.
🔹 Key Moment:
Silverious Losing His Arm
- This
symbolic loss is not just about physical pain—it is about his
transformation.
- After
losing his arm, Silverious must find power beyond the blade.
✔ This perfect balance of
action and emotional weight makes The Ocean in Time an unforgettable
read.
3. Weaknesses of the Novel
🔸 1. The Complexity Might
Be Overwhelming
✔ The novel’s time-bending
structure means readers must keep track of multiple timelines,
dimensions, and conflicting versions of characters.
✔ The Ocean, the Lower World, and the Keepers of
Time all have deep lore, which may be difficult to grasp on a first read.
✔ Some readers may feel that certain twists—like
the revelation that Quasepella and Silverious are both children of the
CREATURE—come too quickly to fully process.
🔹 Possible Fix: A timeline
guide or glossary would help readers navigate the story’s complex
structure.
🔸 2. Some Side Characters
Are Underdeveloped
✔ Satina, the mother of
Silverious and Cocomal, arrives at the climax but her backstory is not
fully explored.
✔ Zantron, a fearsome warrior, appears as a
powerful force but does not get as much focus as Cocomal or Quasepella.
🔹 Possible Fix:
More flashback scenes could strengthen these characters’ roles.
4. The Ending: Setting Up a Sequel?
✔ The novel ends on a
cliffhanger, with Silverious trapped in the Lower World and the
Grandmaster promising to come for him.
✔ Cocomal has disappeared with the Jewel,
meaning the war is far from over.
✔ The final words of the CREATURE suggest that an
even greater battle is coming—one that could affect not just Flomoshia,
but all dimensions.
🔹 Key Quote (The
CREATURE’s Final Warning):
❝When I come for you, Flomoshia and all the
dimensions shall never again be the same.❞
✔ This leaves readers
desperate for a sequel, ensuring that The Ocean in Time will remain a
story of legend.
5. Final Verdict: A Masterpiece of Fantasy &
Philosophy
✔ A deeply layered novel
that blends war, destiny, and redemption.
✔ Breathtaking worldbuilding, with a living
Ocean, a fractured Time, and realms beyond imagination.
✔ Complex, morally conflicted characters who struggle
with fate and free will.
✔ A thrilling and emotional climax, setting
the stage for an even grander sequel.
⭐ Final Score: 9/10
✔ Perfect for fans of epic
fantasy with deep themes of time, choice, and sacrifice.
✔ A must-read for those who love layered villains,
tragic heroes, and battles that go beyond just swords and magic.
Tuesday, 17 October 2023
Introduction to my blog/vlog
Have you ever wondered what it means to be human?
I have decided to blog my journey, be it my Spiritual journey, or my writing journey. All of these quests are interconnected. I am nearly thirty-five and I am diagnosed with Schizoaffective. I'll share stories about that too. I'll share about romance and in the future marriage tips. I'll share poetry. Perhaps I will invest a lot of energy in this blog when motivated.
I am going to examine my own humanity, and hope to connect with the reader's humanity. From time to time I'll discuss Bible verses, and what they mean to me. I'll discuss the importance of suffering, and coping mechanisms that are working for me and my volatile mental health. I will discuss poetry and songwriting. I will share life lessons and the things I am learning. This blog is about living and learning, growing and becoming complete. I hope to honor God, and to help people somehow, showing that we're all in this together. Lets have the faith to leap out of the boat.
Monday, 16 February 2015
For Joy
where the child would be found in her tears.
Mixed with salt, mixed with wine, her reflection was divine,
but I’m afraid that’s the last time I saw her.
When a child loses hope, they grow older and they float,
upon the currents of degraded laughter.
When a daughter is lost, in the woods by the cost,
of a disengaged merciless father.
Her veiled face is an anonymous race,
The color of her skin achromatic...
She’s gone, gone, without the slightest trace,
The tale of her woes dramatic.
She’s out, out, to find what was herself,
but I think it’s been consumed by nature.
The trout, trout, sing aloud by night,
she’s been given a new form by the Creator...
She’s been given a new form by the Creator...